To Make You Feel My Love

Wow! I can’t believe it has almost been a year! A year since I took the plunge and moved states, started a new job, completed my written exam and now I’m about to undertake my (hopefully) last hurdle: the oral exam.

I’ve been feeling pretty stressed and depressed these couple of days (which given the circumstances is expected) and all I can think of is: “Please just let me get through this.” My biggest regret this year is that I spent too much time in the library. Every free moment was spent there and at this point, just stepping into ‘A’ library frustrates and angers me. Out of the average 7 hours I spend there, probably a good 4-hours is spent doing frivolous things like watching a tv show or just daydreaming. The leftover 3 hours I actually get something done but I could have spent the wasted 4 hours on something better or more interesting! Ahhhhhhhhhhh!

I think  its just the nerves talking. I blame my nerves for everything: severe nausea, panic attacks, anxiety, insomnia, anorexia etc.

I CAN’T FRIGGIN’ WAIT!

Waste of space

Yup, that’s me.

Argghhh sometimes I really hate myself!

You would think that if I’m that worried about something, I’d be bending backwards trying to work on it.

Nah not me.

This is a huge contributing factor to my ongoing love/hate relationship with well… myself. I should stop being so goddamn lazy and get off my arse!

I almost forgot how good ranting always made me feel. Man, its great to be back.

PS: Yup, I realize this post serves no purpose whatsoever hence the aptly named title. I just gotta remember my motivation to get me through my exam: A 2nd tattoo!

Right now, its a choice between 4 words. Live. Life. Love. Patience. Hmm… Maarish might have had a point.. pretty soon I’d be a walking dictionary.

Till then.

Wonders of makeup

Best thing anyone ever said to me this year:

Silvia: Did you have plastic surgery??!!!

This was her response upon seeing my Malaysian ID and passport.

My response: “I think I’ll take that as a compliment.”

Urinary incontinence

I witnessed one of the most disturbing event of my life.

While I was walking out from Flinders Station, I noticed there was a small but steady stream of water trickling down the pathway. Thinking that it must be a leak soMewhere, my eyes started to roam about by habit to identify the source.

Well, this was what I saw: A well-dressed man in his late 50s was standing in the corner facing outwards into the street, partially shielded by a motorbike. Upon looking down… He was peeing!!! As in you can see his dick on full display!!!!

Like seriously man! WTF!? Public toilets are abundant in Melb city dude! Filled with toilet paper and handsoaps!

Gross! And what a way to kick off my weekend!!

The Way The World Sees It

To the world, that person may seem like the worst person ever (think retarded, idiotic, weird, wacky, psychotic etc) but to some other person they may just mean the world to them.

Mini-reflections

I finally figured out today what everyone meant by:

“Without a past, there is no future.”

I’ve also discovered that sometimes all you need is a little encouragement. Or well… lots of it on certain days; to truly be able to say:

“I tried my best.”

Not my day

Just because:

1. A customer was so mean to me I almost cried on the spot. I’m usually very nice to my customers and try my best to keep my cool no matter what happens. But today was just bad. Bad.
2. I fell right on my bum in Hawker’s Cafe. And 4 people saw it. The boss, the chef, the waitress and the customer.
3. Not my usual cheerful self today. Could barely even put a smile on my face. Just felt drained, tired and depressed.
4. Went through the whole day feeling nauseous, bloated and had a headache (tight band across my temples) pretty much the whole time.
5. Am having Macca’s now although I swore to have it only once a week (Friday is Macca’s day for Briony, Eugene, Matt and I).

Wow, what a way to announce my return to the blogging world: A rant-y post.

Ahh… feels like home!

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Angels & Gratitude: A powerful mix

Stolen

We watch the season
Pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well

Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well

You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We
All
Look
Like
We
Feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart