Weirdest dream EVER!

Omg! I had the most bizarre dream last night! I was classmates with NigaHiga, Zack Addy, Temperance Brennan and goodness know who else. The school assessment was a glee-like stage performance and I don’t think I did that well. NigaHiga was the star performer and strangely enough the scoring system was like the one we had in SAM. Haha and with my trial results all I could get into was this college called The Yellow School of Education. Racist much?

Like I said… Weird huh?

Rested

It’s been a long time since I’ve spent time on my own. Doing nothing but reflecting and relaxing. Oh not exactly nothing I guess, I did 5 loads of laundry including my sheets, cooked, cleaned the house and also did some ironing.

On a different note, I went to JB-Hifi yesterday and almost bought out the whole store. Everyone waiting in line had only maybe an item or two but I had The Sopranos, Nurse Jackie, Castle and Adele’s live concert.

Guess what I did today and yesterday? I watch the whole season of Castle and I’m almost done with season one of NJ. This is what I call BLISS!

Surrounded

It wasn’t until earlier today that I realised that I have somehow surrounded myself with people that are so inspiring.

I can’t imagine myself in another setting, in another place and I think that’s very blessed of me to be able to say so.

Most people I know hate waking up in the morning, hating the routine of the upcoming day. I for one, love it. Don’t get me wrong, there are some days when I just can’t be bothered, but as soon as I step into the pharmacy… I feel like I belong. Like I have a sense of purpose, a mission to accomplish.

It hasn’t been the easiest year for me, a couple of times I was actually scared shitless. Nevertheless, it’s never to late to continue trying my best.

Here’s to a better tomorrow.

25

I heard that you’re settled down
That you found a girl and you’re married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it
I had hope you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded
That for me, it isn’t over

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don’t forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

-Adele-

It’s amazing how much you can have in common. Me and Adele.

Let’s talk feelings

Devastation is when someone tells you “No one will want you even if you wear a miniskirt.” Worse if you were 13 when you first heard this.

I’m on a roll!

“Titanium”
(feat. Sia)

[Sia:]
You shout it out
But I can’t hear a word you say
I’m talking loud not saying much
I’m criticized but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up

[Chorus:]
I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium

[Sia:]
Cut me down
But it’s you who have further to fall
Ghost town, haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I’m talking loud not saying much

[Chorus:]
I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
I am titanium
I am titanium

[Sia:]
Stone-hard, machine gun
Firing at the ones who run
Stone-hard, those bulletproof glass

[Chorus:]
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
I am titanium

On a brighter note!

I’m headed to Japan this Friday!

Lol, feeling a tad amateurish because I’ve just realised my flight’s on the 21st of October at 0055… which means I’m leaving on Thursday night instead of the Friday night I keep telling everyone! Arggh such a doofus!

I’ve been feeling a little run down lately, so a vacation is definitely in order. Hopefully when I get back, I’d be fresh and ready to go for X’mas. My first X’mas as a manager I’M TERRIFIED! Sometimes, I still can’t believe I’m running the show. That I’d be responsible for 30-odd staff members and I’ll be carrying the weight of my store’s success during such a busy period. I have to keep telling myself: I was groomed for this and I had 9 months to prepare for this! As I like to say: I WILL NOT BE BEATEN!

The people I work with have always been my source of inspiration and strength, I couldn’t have asked for a better team. We’ll rock this X’mas I’m sure of it!

Moving on! I’m looking forward to seeing my parents, shopping, eating, sightseeing, taking a break from work… well the possibilities are endless! Koniichiwa! xx

I need a break from reality.

You know how everyone has a list, the list where they hope to have achieved by a certain point in life? Well, naturally I have one too. Have I accomplished much that I once set out to do?

Hmm… yes and no.

Sorry, I’m not trying to be deliberately confusing but that’s my honest answer. For one, I never thought I’d end up in Melbourne (Adelaide yes, with all my friends) and come November 19th it will mark my 3 years here. What a long journey it has been! One I like to think that I’ve dotted with accomplishments and success. Year one was the toughest, moving away from everyone I knew (third time nonetheless!), working AND studying all in the same year! Now that I look back on 2009… I realise I AM a tough girl.

Year two was a bit blah, first year as a pharmacist so the excitement pretty much wore out mid-year. Also the anticipation of being made the next manager got a little tiring, I cruised along just fine.

Year three? Well, my most challenging to date. I took over as manager, fell in love (and also had my heart broken at the same time), hit a few roadblocks as manager and I also spent a good portion of the year trying to figure out if I should stay or leave Melbourne.

There, I’ve said it.

My main reason has always been my family and after my dad’s huge fall I realise how important family really is to me. Everyone who knows me, knew that I had a tough time growing up without my mother, living with a stepmother and trying particularly hard to fit in with my ‘new’ family. We’ve since worked out all our kinks (suffice to say it was a long and hard journey but looking back at it now I wouldn’t really change a thing because of what has been done for my character) and I really want to make up for those times we didn’t get along.

Living overseas has its perks don’t get me wrong: the stable income, job satisfaction (feeling as though I’m contributing to the community), finding such a great group of people at work and also I think the distance has allowed my stepmother and I to appreciate the roles we play in each others life more.

BUT… it also sucks when you’re not there when the good or bad happens to your family. Not being able to celebrate birthdays together, not able to hug and console your sisters when they need their tears wiped and the worst of all? Feeling helpless when something happens to your loved one eg: my dad’s horrific fall earlier this year. That, I feel has been the biggest hurdle this year. To be honest with you, all I wanted to do that very second was quit my job and quit my life in Melbourne. Anything just to NOT feel that helpless again.

The feeling has lessened slightly when I realised my parents have a really amazing support group around them. For that, I feel blessed.

 

One more thing!

I think its time for me to change my header. How embarrassing.

I’m such a softie

… and that’s probably the reason why I attract all the big softies.

Now that I’ve dusted this god-forsaken blog of mine (and since when did I get so weepy and lovelorn!) I thought I’d post something a bit more positive.

I’m back. That should be positive enough I think.