It’s time…

How do you know if it’s time to let go?

It used to be so easy. When you’ve learned to hold your balance, you let go of your training wheels. Pets are good companions, but there will come a day when they can no longer be by our side listening to matters we’re too afraid to tell anyone else. As hurt as we might be, we let them go by peaceful means.

Someone once told me, “Friendship is the key to everything”. But let me ask you this, “If a friend betrays you time and time again, does the meaning of the word friend still hold true?” Or do you try again until you find the lock which the key might fit?

Growing up is all about letting go. Letting go of the past especially. I used to be afraid, afraid that once I let go of my past it might mean I’m abandoning the loved ones I’ve lost. How do you find closure when there’s still so much you want to say to them? Especially… “I’m sorry.”

There’s something I’ve learned recently, something I wished I had come to know much earlier. It’s so much easier when you look at something from the outside. Not having to be caught up in all the responsibilities and obligations of trying to understand the matter at hand. I admit I’ve made the mistake of not putting myself in another person’s shoes time and time again. It’s so much easier to just hold on to your own comfortable pair and pass judgement on other people.

Since I’ve arrived in Adelaide, my relationship with my stepmum has improved tremendously. No longer a threat in her eyes, we can now converse with ease and finally give each other the respect we rightfully deserve. I guess what I’m trying to say is… I’ve since learned to let go of any past hatred and misunderstandings and finally taken a step towards accepting her presence in mine and my dad’s life.

Mum, I forgive you.

Have you forgiven me too?

I wished we could have resolved this much earlier.

Cos’ it would have saved us a lot of anguish and hurt.

I’m sorry.

Days to come

Dear beloved blog,

I hope you’ll take the news I’m about to tell you well. I have a feeling you’ve already gone through it many times before this. It’s been fun these couple of weeks, with me filling you up with many many photos, trip, anecdotes and whatnots. But I’m afraid the time has come for me to abandon you once again. As you know, part of the reason why you’ve been updated so consistently (or should I say religiously?) this 2 weeks is well.. cos’ I’m on my mid-sem break. That’s all about to change tomorrow.

Classes officially start at 9 tomorrow and I have no idea how I’m going to get myself out of bed when nowadays I wake up only when the sun shines on my butt. (literally lar, it’s a dialect saying) Not only do I have to contend with the ‘early’ hours, I have to retrain my eyes to appear awake/open during classes although my mind may be miles away. (sneaky huh)

As of today, I’ve only 5 weeks to go before I encounter the beast itself @ my FINALS. The plan was to fit in some revision in the aforementioned 2 weeks (the operative word here being ‘fit’) but as you can see my dear blog, I kinda had lots of other things that appealed to my lazy side.

On less depressing subjects, I feel that I’ve completed a lot during the holidays. What started out as a free n’ easy holiday turned out to be a pretty packed one as well. With activities like Danielicious’ birthday dinner, pizza party, camwhoring at Starbucks, checking out leng chais, shopping for Cardiolicious’ shades, Barossa road trip, fine-dining, shoe shopping with my shoe bestie, household cleaner shopping, chilli con carne lunch, midnight soup, disastrous mooncake festival (for me), random day of blood donating and shopping, Any’s birthday till today’s poh piah lunch (whew! that was a mouthful) I’d say I spent the days pretty well.

I would have liked to say that I’m better prepared this time around but that would be a big lie. I’m still as terrified as ever of the upcoming days where I’m expected to glue my butt to my chair and actually study. I think I’m just programmed to procrastinate genetically.

This entry didn’t sound as weird in my head as it is when typed out. Reading back what I just wrote, I have to say there’s a touch of mania in this post. Oh well, I expect more to come once the stress sets in.

So dear blog, I’m terribly sorry if you find yourself left alone for long periods of time but I promise to visit often.

XOXO

-yhwee-

PS: Contrary to popular belief, I’m not a raving lunatic although this entry might have proved otherwise.

Nostalgia

Counting the days till I’ll be within inches of these people.

Are you hungry yet?

Sometimes, I surprise even myself. I can obsess over something today and be over it tomorrow OR I could still be in love with that same thing 4 years later (this reference is specific for besties like sumi).

Well, my point is (which I shall attempt to illustrate with Cheese & Onion Shapes) I’m weird. I know it’s something most of you would have figured out yourself already.

Last week, I was so totally in looooooovvvveeeee with Shapes after Ruilin feed the famished me during pharmacology. At that time, it tasted like absolute heaven.

I bought a pack of my own soon after. Finished it within a day (shared among my PBL members) so I bought another last Friday. It’s been sitting in the jar (pictured above) since then. Suddenly, no more craving!

I opened it 15 minutes earlier… and I just stared at it. And I got myself a cup of Cadbury Hot Chocolate instead. With bits of Hup Seng Cream Crackers (which is also absolutely delicious).

And then… I realised something! I do have a new obsession….. consuming the concoction above has been somewhat routine almost every night!

If you find yourself totally confused and somewhat pissed by my round-around yakking, really sorry ya?

But then again, that’s the reason why I have the categories Pointless Pondering/Mad Mutterings and Self-Entitled/Self-Absorbed Moments.

 Ok, you guys can go on with your lives now.

Temptations

How do we make choices? Why do people have different perceptions of things? How do we know whether something is GOOD or EVIL?

Take smoking for instance. I’ve got tons of friends who smoke, and they all know the dangers/risks of it. Why then?

I have to admit, curiosity did get the better of me at 13. Peer pressure I guess. But then, I chose not to give in.

At work, I see kids as young as 14 buying cigarettes…. and I’m so tempted to ‘counsel’ them. But then, I decided not to be so kepoh.

So, shut up Yong Hwee.

Shop-A-Maniac

Met up with Lisha and Yee yesterday for lunch @ Scoozi’s. Well, that WAS the initial plan… but shopping kinda got wedged in between too.

Yee trying out a new look. I call it the ‘chipmunk’ look.

Lisha doing what she does best.

Camwhore Reunion

Dinner at the newly renovated Hungry Jacks.

I bought a top at Jeans West. Ah, bliss. Then it was Yee’s turn.

Candidate 1#

Candidate 2#

Candidate 3#

After pondering for waaaaaayyyyyyyy too long, it was Candidate 3# that went home with Yee.

Food For The Soul II

Lunching with The Ladies @ Chinatown

OCF: The Choice

Ju-Lear: “Omg so hawt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

The Symbol of Hope

 Daffodil Day

-The Cancer Council-

Mum and Aunt Sot Peng, this entry is for you. I know you tried your hardest and hopefully if I’m ever faced with a situation like this, I will fight like hell too to survive. I promise.

Love and miss you both

-Yhwee-

My hope keychain. Yup, sometimes thats what you really need.

Meet my new friend Boost the Teddy. He has on a cute Daffodil Day t-shirt.

Oh ya, went to the Malaysia Carnival in Uni Adelaide this afternoon. It was pretty fun. Pictured above is my vegetarian thosai.

My 6 for $5 satay. Not too bad lar. Got ketupat somemore

And yup! after many restless nights of dreaming about it, I finally bought the bag from Rip Curl which I’ve been coveting for a while.

All my vices/indulgences: Sex & The City, Thosai, Satay and my contributions to the fight againsts cancer.

How’s the view?

Failed Sweet Sour Prawns

Aidan.

Nice name don’t you think?

Think I’ve been watching way too much Sex and the City. As I was walking down the street earlier, it was like WHAM! In a few more years, I’ll be facing those kind of problems too. Not exactly a tantalizing thought to have right now.

Sure the lure of Manolo Blahniks, Chanel, a cool loft in the city sounds perfect right now……. but think of all the responsibilities!

Okay, I admit I’m kinda rambling right now. Usually this happens when I’m supposed to be studying but trying to avoid it at the same time.

Yup. That’s all for now I guess. I think my multiple posts recently makes up for my absence last week.

So, Aidan.

Food For The Soul

I’d been starving my soul for quite a while now (the emo posts doesn’t qualify) until last weekend when Chin invited us to her church’s 9th anniversary at Hope Christian Fellowship.

It was amazing, and as cliche as it sounds… I think I did some soul-searching and finally found reassurance. You know… questions to my emo posts

I really loved the scene where there were kids of all sorts of colours and races playing together. I was seriously reduced to a wet, gooey pile of mush when I saw an african girl braiding (ghetto style) a white girl’s hair. These are definitely the moments that should appear in World Peace ads.

I’m reminded of how long it has been since I last went to church. Damn long ago. I really need to work on that. It was not until that morning, when I was standing side by side, shoulder to shoulder with the followers of God/Jesus that I really miss the fulfilling feeling when I sang along in church.

The other thing I liked most was Pastor Brendon. He’s a believer of both religion and science. Now that’s a real leader to me.

So, all I want to say is… thanks Chin for enriching my life.

Any, Che Kun, Chin, Kevin, Poh Lee, Me, Gerald and Amanda

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Seriously lip-smacking Crispy Terriyaki Chicken @ Chopsticks